The journey to becoming a father is a strange one at times; I’ll give it that. All of the realizations, thoughts, feelings, and more that I’ve shared on our pregnancy blog over the last month and a half have all been big… but not as big as what is about to come.
On Wednesday, Pregnant Jane will have an ultrasound and we’ll learn if we’re having a boy or girl.
On Wednesday, our current “baby” will become our son or daughter.
On Wednesday, everything officially becomes REAL for me! Ahhhhhh!
I think for a pregnant women, their body is going through all sorts of changes on the inside and outside rather quickly, so the realism of “I’m pregnant and I’m going to be a mom” settles in fast for them.
On the other hand, for a father-to-be (at least for me anyway) it’s been more like little baby steps. A little soon-to-be father realization here, a thought there.
I’ve of course known in my mind and heart that I’m going to be a father. I’m excited about it. But the realness of it all hasn’t fully set in yet. It’s not like I’m walking around with a pregnant belly all day every day to serve as a constant reminder like Pregnant Jane. Thank God.
I’m reminded that I’m going to be a father by thoughts that flow in and out of my mind. For example, today I had the thought that once we get back on our feet financially, I wanted to take Jane to Disney World. She’s never been, and I know she’d LOVE it there. But then I reminded myself that she’s pregnant, and she wouldn’t be able to go on the roller coasters. Hmmm.
That’s the way it’s been day in and day our for me. These little thoughts pop into my head followed by a reminder, “oh yeah, I’m going to be a father soon; that will have to wait.” So while I know Jane is pregnant and I of course know I’m going to be a father, I have a feeling that Wednesday will be yet another one of those huge steps towards fatherhood. Knowing if we have a son or daughter on the way will completely flip our thinking.
Up until now, it’s been “the baby”. Neither pink or blue, neither girl or boy. No specific thoughts running through our minds. However, on Wednesday when we find out the sex of our baby, everything is going to change for me – maybe the both of us.
After Wednesday, thoughts will fill my day of either me playing catch with my son, or reaching for my wallet when Pregnant Jane and my daughter go shopping.
Thoughts of playing with toys, flying toy planes, or watching my son pitch a no-hitter… or thoughts of me playing with Barbie dolls, watching my wife and daughter play dress up, or watching my daughter give a stellar performance at her Ballet or balance beam gymnastics show, or whatever you call them.
Thoughts of what we’ll soon need to buy will begin dancing around in my head. Once we know if we’re having a girl or boy, we’ll know if it’ll be a pink stroller or a blue stroller. Clothes. A baby seat. Toys. Oh my! Oh my head…
Seriously, this ultrasound on Wednesday will create a completely new chapter in our lives!
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Hey Jenn,
Thanks so much! :) We can't wait. It's been all we've been talking about all day in between running around and working like crazy!
I also received your really nice letter and have forwarded that to Jane. Thank you very much and I'm glad everything is all good. :)
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