
As I just put clothes in the dryer, I realized how much laundry Tarzan and I actually go through. I feel like I just did 3 loads of laundry for us a few days ago and now it’s time again. And we both work from home, which means that we don’t get out of our pj’s on some days.
As I was putting the clothes from the washing machine to the dryer, my thoughts turned to our baby. I can’t even imagine how much laundry our new family of three will go through then.
Then I got to thinking that I still can’t really imagine what our new life will be like with a baby.
I can’t imagine how our house will look like with baby stuff in it. I can’t imagine loading the car up with a baby, car seat, diaper bad, stroller, and anything else that is needed before running an errand. It sounds exhausting to me.
Before ever getting pregnant, I always thought, “I’ll be pregnant for 9 months and I’ll be ready by the time that 9 month period is over.” Well, considering I’m not quite there yet, I wonder if I will still think like that.
As it is I’m 26 weeks pregnant and I was informed by an email that I have 98 days left (keeping fingers crossed) before we meet our little boy. While I’m so excited to meet him, see what he looks like, and to actually hold him, I can’t help but feel really unprepared.
But not unprepared in the having baby stuff sense. I know that it’ll all come together and we’ll have all we need before he arrives.
It’s the unprepared in the “what do do, how to act, what life will be like with an actual baby” sense.
Today I got an email about U2 coming to Houston in October. I immediately told Tarzan that we have to get tickets for this concert. Then I remembered that I will have a 2 month old baby at that time.
I began to wonder what my life will be like then. Will I actually want to leave my 2 month old at home while I go to a concert or will that seem so trivial compared to spending time with him? I’ve never done this so I don’t know. Right now I’m all for it, but I’m pretty sure that all of my thoughts will change after I meet him.
Now don’t get me wrong, I fully believe that it’s important to incorporate your baby into your life, not the other way around. I believe it’s a great idea to go on with life as you would (for the most part) instead of being a different person only because you have a baby. But a 2 month old baby? I feel like he’ll be so small and everything will be so new still that I don’t know if I’ll be ok mentally to leave him yet.
And more importantly, will my husband be ok at home with him at that time? We both don’t know.
Tarzan and I talked about this briefly the other night. A commercial came on for something kid-related and I turned to Tarzan to ask him if he had thought of that yet. I hadn’t, but he said that he had thought of it. Then we began to talk about how life will change. It’s such a bizarre thing to me because I know our life will change, but I don’t know too much after that.
I’m pretty sure this change will be amazing and that we won’t be able to imagine life without our little boy… but right now, that seems so far away. I’m pretty sure that our whole life will revolve around him and that we will experience a newfound love so deep and wonder how we lived before knowing this feeling.
Funny comparison, but it reminds me of life before having our dog. I wanted to adopt a dog from a rescue right after Tarzan and I began dating. We didn’t live together, so technically I didn’t care if he wanted to adopt or not. He is a dog-lover, but he didn’t think that getting a dog was the best idea because we loved to travel, go out, etc.
Like I said, I didn’t care what he thought about it and I filled out the adoption application and started moving forward. When I saw our dog on Petfinder.com, I just knew she was the one for us. I showed Tarzan her picture. Even though he thought she was adorable, he still didn’t see how she would fit into our new life together.
After I was approved for a dog, a home meeting was set-up. I passed that and then moved on to meeting our potential dog to see how well we fit together. Tarzan went with me and it was a match made in heaven for all three of us. He fell in love with her. I fell in love with her. And I like to think that she fell in love with us.
I paid the $300 for her and we were thrilled to have a new addition to our family. From that point on, we loved her like we could have never thought before. We still went about our normal life, but now with her in mind too. She wasn’t a hassle or burden to us at all; she made us happy.
Almost immediately after we got her, Tarzan told me that he loved her so much and couldn’t imagine life without her. I reminded him that he didn’t even want a dog and how much he had changed. To this day, we love her so much. She’s so much more than a little dog to us; we totally treat her like a child. When we leave, we can’t wait to get home and see her get so excited. Whenever we can, we take her with us. She’s part of our world now and we couldn’t imagine what life would be like without her.
And I think that’s what it’ll be like with our son. On a whole other level I’m sure. But right now, I just can’t imagine it. I do feel confident that everything will just fall into place and our new life will leave us feeling more complete than we could have imagined.
And for that, I’m really excited.
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I think you'll be fine. At first the baby blots out everything while you try to figure out how to do everything with a little person in tow, and of course the feeding and sleeping schedule takes over until they're a little bigger. Then after a few weeks things start to sort themselves out. You streamline, figure out what you need, what works, and how your baby responds to different things. Some things will change forever, but you will remain the same people you are now, only with this little person who you consider before everything else. For us it usually means just a bit of extra prep before we do things, and NEVER, EVER, forgetting my daughter's favorite bunny. Oh and I miss date nights and sleeping in, they still happen, but not nearly as often.
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