30 weeks pregnant: A note to my baby boy

Dear Baby T,

So much is happening to me right now and I’m such an emotional mess, but there is one thing that is so definite and completely clear to me… I cannot wait to meet you.  I’m so excited to see you for the first time!  I wonder what parts of me and what parts of your dad you will have.  

This new feeling wasn’t always present.  

It’s funny how I’ve changed in these past months.  Of course, little babe, I’ve always been happy about you.  I’ve always wanted to provide a safe place for you to grow.  But it hasn’t been until recently that I’ve really gotten excited about you.  You know, it’s finally all settling in about what’s happening and it puts a huge smile on my face!

I’m not really sure if I was just nervous before , if I was still in shock that I was pregnant, or I was just dumb and not letting my emotions shine through, but that’s all in the past now.  

I love thinking about you and I can’t wait to hold you in my arms.  I know that you are going to just complete our lives and I hope that doesn’t sound too cheesy.  I can’t wait to see the world through your eyes, watch you learn, and hear your giggle for the first time.

I was really shocked at that big ultrasound when I was told that you were, in fact, a boy.  I could have swore that you were a girl (no offense!).  It was a surprise because I’d already been thinking pink and bows, definitely not blue and trucks.  But I truly couldn’t imagine my baby not being a boy now.  It seems so perfect and I wouldn’t change it for the world!  

Today we went to the hospital to meet your 2nd cousin who was just born a day ago.  It was amazing to look at her and know that you are growing so strong in my belly too.  I know that you two will be best buddies, even though she’s a girl.  

I just want you to know how much I love you and how much I mean that when I say those words.  I wasn’t sure that I would ever really “come around” to saying that before meeting you, but it’s true.  In no word of a lie, you are always on my mind.  You have no idea how much happiness I feel when you kick the crap out of my stomach.  It makes me giggle each time and it’s definitely my favorite part of being pregnant.

I just imagine you dancing around in there and I can’t wait to see you “dance” in real life too.  There are so many things that I want for you, but I won’t get ahead of myself just yet.  Just know that your mom loves you so much and you already bring me so much joy and happiness.  

In fact, you are turning me into a sap completely.

But it’s okay because you are so worth it, little babe.

I love you,

Your mom

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