Dear Monkey,
Today you are 1-month old! It seems like just yesterday we were taking you home from the hospital and worried on that drive home. I honestly can’t believe one whole month has gone by so quickly. I hope time starts slowing down so that we can savor all of these moments with you.
I know that I might not have been the best mom so far because of all that was going on, but I’m getting there and noticing such an improvement with myself. I hope you know how much I love you and what a delight you are in my life. I look at you swinging away and grunting right now and I smile. You really are the greatest gift from up above and I hope that I show you that daily.
You are growing up so fast! You already seem to be getting chubbier cheeks and I can’t wait to squeeze them! (I’ll be gentle, I promise.) I can’t wait to weigh you today to see how much you weigh now!
I want you to know that when you look into my eyes when I’m feeding you, I melt. You have the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen. So deep and so blue. Just perfect.
There’s so much that I want for you in your life, but I guess we have time to get into that in the future. I don’t want to rush things… After all, you are only 1-month old, so let’s just enjoy that milestone!
Just know that you are the most perfect little boy in the world. Thanks for bearing with me as I learn this whole mom thing & I promise that things will just keep on getting better for all of us! One day at a time, right?
So as you nap away right now, I hope that you are having sweet dreams and I’ll be right there when you wake up.
I love you little buddy.
You might also want to read:
- A mother’s note to her two month old son
- Is there a 12 month old sleep regression? Is Monkey just teething? What the &*#* is going on?!
- Monkey’s two month old vaccination appointment
- An open letter to soon-to-be Dad’s and new Fathers: MAN UP you lazy #&%$. Seriously.
- Two Month Old Schedule: Three days in the life of little Monkey
= a post from Mommy Jane 
= a post from Daddy Tarzan
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Very sweet:) I recently found your blog and wow, that whole no maternity coverage/ one too many jello shots could have been hubby and me. Just now thinking of trying so in hindsight it is a blessing to not even have to “try”. Congrats!
WOW, I can not believe it has been a month already!
Congratulations on one month of being Mommy to Monkey. Enjoy the time and how fitting that you have your first date night this evening. Have a wonderful outing with Tarzan
Love this Jane!
I write a monthly letter to my little boy too! For his first birthday I am going to have a book made (on shutterfly or somewhere) With the letters and pictures.. Then from his first birthday on, I will just write them once a year.
What an amazing thing for them to have when they are older!
Happy 1 Month-Day Monkey! And I am so happy to hear that Mommy Jane is feeling better too! Just don’t put yourself down for how you have felt these past few weeks. I can promise you that Monkey is not at all disappointed and has not suffered at all!
I remember you saying in an earlier blog that you did not feel you had bonded with Monkey because you didn’t know what he needed all the time. Well Jane, just re-read what you wrote above. You are BONDED! Being able to anticipate Monkey’s needs is a matter of experience, not bonding. You will (and probably already have) learn how to tell what he needs through practice and experience.
Bonding is looking at Monkey and the world stops spinning because of the overwhelming love you feel.
Bonding is how you smile to yourself just at the thought of his eyes looking at you (you’re smiling now, aren’t you?).
Thank you for writing this blog. My little one is not due till November, and I am at high risk for PPD too. Reading what you and Tarzan had experienced this past month is really valuable to me, as I prepare for our new arrival. I am so glad you took the right steps to take care of yourself. Have fun with Monkey on his second month!
Congrats on your first month. I love the letter to you son.
Jane this is absolutly beautiful!!! Tears again!!!