Happy New Year’s Eve!
I’ve never really believed in the whole “let’s make resolutions for New Years”. I can’t honestly remember the last time I set out to improve my life on the first day of the New Year.
The resolution thing is strange to me: Why wait until the New Year? Why not try to improve in the areas you lack during the year too?
This year is different though… I’ve joined the herd of resolution-making mainly because it just seems like a good time to really take charge of certain areas in my life.
Before moving on to my resolutions, let’s recap 2009:
1. Monkey was born & my life changed forever. Motherhood entered my life, shifted all of my priorities, and made me into a new & better person. I am blessed & thankful that Monkey made me into a mommy.
2. My relationship with my husband also got even more fabulous in 2009.
3. We had money problems & I’ve never seen my husband so sad & depressed.
4. Our money problems went away.
5. My relationship with my parent’s went way downhill.
6. My relationship with my brother increased to awesomeness.
7. I gained weight ( pregnancy) & weigh the most I ever have in.my.entire.life.
I’m sure there were many other happenings in 2009, but those were the ones that really stood out in my mind. There are many things that I hope to change in this next year. & I’ll admit that I’m started to feel really overwhelmed by having resolutions. I don’t want to fail, hence all of the pressure I am putting on myself. (I knew there was a reason why I never made resolutions in the past!)
Here’s What I Hope To Accomplish In 2010:
1. Lose weight & be healthy.
This is my priority because of Monkey. Yes, I’m not going to lie in saying that I want to fit back into my clothes that are gracing my closet & acting as decorations right now, but I also just want to be a healthy mom. Monkey is going to start eating real food & I will be his example. I don’t want him seeing me reach for convenience for the pure sake that it is convenient. I want him to learn healthy eating habits & I realize that it stems from me.
Plus, I’m just miserable. Who wants to have a 5.5 month old & still be wearing maternity jeans? Sure I could go & buy regular jeans, but the last time I tried that I had to get either a 10 or a 12 (which is big for my body). Um, thanks but no thanks. I will stick to my maternity jeans until I’m no longer a slight fatty chubby.
(If you are a 10, 12, or a 20, I am not criticizing you. I’m only saying that for me & my body, I should be a lot smaller than that size to be healthy. I’m not judging you here.)
2. Make exercising a priority.
This goes hand-in-hand with the above. Prior to Monkey I loved exercising. It was never a hassle to me, but pure enjoyment. I used to hear moms talk all of the time about how hard it was to fit exercise in & I never understood that. But now I do.
Holy Hell, it’s hard to make time for exercising when there is a baby in the picture!
When Monkey naps, I want to get on the Internet, blog, twitter, facebook, check my email, etc. I don’t necessarily want to exercise at the same time every single day, but I’m started to realize that that might be the best thing. His morning naps are the same every day, whereas his afternoon naps are a completely different story. The only time I can completely count on for exercise would be during his morning naps. So they say, “You gotta do what you gotta do”.
3. Improve relationship with my parents.
I have realized that while I don’t understand my dad’s way, nor agree with, I have to accept that I can’t change him (no matter how hard I try) & need to accept him for the person he is. Both of my parents mean well & I know that. They just handle things a little different from me… But they are the only parents that I have & I need to try to improve my patience with them & accept them for who they are.
4. Hang out with my grandmother more.
She’s not going to be here forever & I hope to hang out with her at least once a week. It’s hard because she can’t walk well & refuses to use a walker. Clearly since I have to carry Monkey, I cannot prevent her from falling so it’s like a two-person job. But I need to hang out with her more, even if that means just going to her house.
5. Answer my phone.
I simply hate talking on the phone. I like texting & emailing. Impersonal? Yes, but that’s what I like. I don’t prefer to waste my time bullsh!ting with someone on the phone when I just have a simple question to ask them. Hence, the texting. However, it’s gotten to the point where I just press “ignore” when my phone rings & then text back. As my mom says, “I just want to hear your voice sometimes”.
6. Continue to improve the relationship with my husband.
The one thing that seriously lacks in our relationship is sex. I’m going to go out on a stem & say that it’s mostly my fault that this doesn’t happen often anymore. When Monkey is napping, I want my alone time. When Monkey goes to bed, I don’t want to go & have sex. I’m tired by that time. It’s like there is no good time to have sex.
I also think a lot of my lack of a drive is because I feel fat & gross. & because I feel like a mom. I’m with Monkey all day long & while I love it, I just see myself as a mom. Not as a wife, a friend, a shopping buddy, etc. Just a mom that acts stupid to make her son laugh. A mom that talks baby-talk back to her son. A mom that has spit-up on her clothes more often than not.
What about you? What things do you hope to improve in 2010?
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