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I told you that I would jinx myself by writing a sleeping through the night post.

Monkey went to bed at 7:30pm last night and woke up hungry at 4am.  I sat him on his newborn lounger and went into the kitchen to make a bottle.

As I made the bottle, my eyes glanced at the clock on the microwave & I was taken back exactly to 12 weeks [click to continue…]

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Going to see my postpartum depression therapist is like going to the gym.  I dread getting ready & actually driving there, but once I’m there it’s fabulous.  Today was no different.

I walked into my postpartum depression therapy appointment ready to tell my therapist that I no longer needed her assistance, but left my appointment signed up for a women’s group for eight weeks.  Go figure.

I had a great appointment today.  The postpartum depression isn’t my [click to continue…]

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Last Thursday and Friday nights Monkey and I spent the night at my parent’s house.  The painters came over on Thursday to paint Monkey’s new nursery (my old office) and I didn’t want the paint smell to bother him.  Tarzan stayed at home with our little dog so that he could get some work done and have some uninterrupted sleep.

Thursday night my parents, Monkey, and I were in the living room and my dad asked about that first psychiatrist appointment for my postpartum depression.  Before I continue with the story, you should know that I have never been super close with my dad in the sense that I share things like psychiatrists appointment and postpartum depression [click to continue…]

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As I sit here blogging this morning, I can tell that there is a little difference in me.  I feel just a tad different today.  Maybe lighter, like I feel confident about getting through the day.  This lightness is definitely a new feeling, but one that I welcome with open arms.

Yesterday was a good day.  I cancelled Monkey’s two month appointment with his original pediatrician (you know, the one that told me to google torticollis for information and neck exercises) and scheduled him another appointment with a different pediatrician [click to continue…]

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It’s been a pretty crazy past few days.  I can say that while I’m still feeling down in the dumps with postpartum depression, it does seem to be getting better than it was a week ago.  I haven’t blogged in a week because things have been so out of whack and I didn’t want to sound like such a Debbie-Downer in any posts.  I’ve noticed that when I’m feeling the worst, I retreat from blogging, answering my phone, and doing anything that I used to enjoy doing.

It’s like a force that is stronger than me comes over me and I just sulk in the house.  I know that answering my phone, tweeting on twitter, blogging, and getting out of the house actually makes me feel better, but some days I just [click to continue…]

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Yesterday was the day I was dreading, but I was also hopeful at the same time.  It was the meeting of a psychiatrist to help with my postpartum depression and I really had mixed emotions.

On one hand I knew that I had to get help so that I could be a better mom to little Monkey, a better wife to my husband, and be able to get through the day without beating myself up, which I’ve gotten pretty good at lately.

But on the other hand, a way more selfish hand, [click to continue…]

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First of all, even though I have not commented on my previous blog posts yet, please know how much I appreciate what all of you had to say about my postpartum depression.

After I left to go to the grocery story yesterday, I was reading the comments on my phone while driving.  I was crying as I was reading them so I decided to put my phone down until I got into the parking lot.

There’s a lot you can’t see when tears are in the way.

As soon as I parked my car I picked my phone back up.  I think there were only [click to continue…]

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Now that motherhood has been a part of my life for almost 5 weeks, I feel a little more confident about all things mom and baby related.  Notice I said “a little more confident”… I still have a long ways to go, but looking back to when Monkey was just born, I have come a long way.  There’s still so much for me to learn and room for my confidence to increase tenfold.

Motherhood is so unique that nothing except experience can really prepare you.  You can read books, blogs, or listen to advice from parents, but it will not be the same when you have a child.  It’s just something that you need to [click to continue…]

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This will more than likely be my first and last rant on anything on this blog.  I just have a few things to get off my chest and I apologize ahead of time for pressing the pause button on our normally scheduled blog posts…

Even before I begin, I just [click to continue…]

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